My little Rosey

Oh my little Rosey. I felt the need to write you a little letter today. So one day I can look back and remember these times. You are starting Kindergarten soon. I am having a really hard time swallowing it. It seems like just yesterday you were my squishy cheek chubby thigh baby. Oh how I miss that and wish I could do it allll over again. You are growing up way too fast its hard for me to keep up. You have taught me so much about life and about love. I thought I had it all and knew almost all before you blessed my life. Its amazing how innocent we truly are. I find myself running through the days just to keep up with you. I dont want to do that anymore. I need to slow down because I have discovered I wont ever get these days back.

You love testing Mommy and Daddy and I find myself frustrated and asking myself lots and lots of questions and often times doubting myself. Oh you love when I question or doubt myself. Your like a horse or a dog you feed off of it. You sense that question in my voice or my eyes and you ruuuun like the wind. AND THAT is how we have come to be wrapped tightly around that little finger of yours. You have such strong personality characteristics it amazes me. Its like you have taken the strongest traits from both of us and just pulled them together. You are stubborn, strong willed, smart, particular, a true leader, caring, silly and soooo many more things. I am at a crossroads and deciding which way to turn. I know the right road but its hard for Mommy to get in motion. You have reached the end of your napping days. I soooo dont want to take them away from you because you LOVE them at preschool but Mommy is a little tired. 11-12 takes its toll fast and starting to affect other little things, like me being able to go to the gym in the morning, like me being able to end your naps, you know those sorts of things. Im really sorry I have to do this but its time we turn the page and start this next chapter. I am trying really really hard to accept that you are not my little baby anymore. It makes my heart hurt and my eyes burn though.

I love who you are even when you are persistent to say it mildly. I do because I know that even though its a struggle for Mommy and Daddy this little personality of yours is going to get you very far in your life. I know that you wont settle for less. I know that when you want something no wall will stand in your way. You amaze me and I wish I had half the courage that you posses.

So lets work on this bed time issue so this tired Mommy can get a break and we will be good to go. No more late night partying! No more late night sneaking into the kitchen to get some goodies. . Im always surprised at what I will find when I turn your light on in the morning. and I thought you were sleeping.

Im going to leave you with this picture. Remember this. I didnt know if I should laugh hysterically or be mortified. I still dont know but you sure gave Aunt Teppie and I something to talk about. Thank you Aunt Teppie for the quick thinking to pull the phone out and snap a picture. haha

I guess you were curious what was under those clothes! Im just glad no one saw you before I did. Who isnt curious about big Under Armour Dude though?